ready to tap...

so, i finally did it - i registered for my tap dance class. 

as february 2013 starts tomorrow, it'll be the first week of my tap class!! 

ive got the dance pass,
ive got the tap shoes,
im ready to go.  :)

month 1 - complete

week 4 - pretty much the end of the first month of 2013.

it ended ok.  with some shaky moments, but i pulled through and i think im in a good position at the end of this week 4.

i find myself starting to slip and do small things that i should KNOW BETTER than to do.  and those little petty things add up.  and i always do it when things start getting good.  its like i self-sabotage?  i dont know, this is the first time ive ever thought that thought, right now while writing this post. 

but its possible and its something to look at. 
and im still in control of this project and i can keep it on track.  but i still need to remember that each time i screw up is one more chance ive lost.   and chances run out.

so heres to a decent january 2013.  and the end of week 4.  :)

remember december...

go mighty goal #7:  to do everything im invited to in december 2012

i use facebook to keep track of what i do.  now, i also use the "year" to keep track of friends i've seen.  i give myself a deadline of dec 31 every year to see my friends at least once.  the older i get, the older my friends get, the more we tend to get busy & drift apart.

i do this every year & i get caught in december every year.  so this month tends to be the busiest.  and luckily ive been taking pictures this year of the things im doing and friends im seeing.  it is like smashing a whole year of social into one month but if thats what happens, thats what happens.

so far, ive been good about saying yes to everything AND tracking down friends i havent seen this year.  im usually the driving force behind keeping in touch with.  :) 

double axels & cocoa...

last night i did something that happens in atlanta every year & i havent done yet. 

i went and ice skated at park tavern at piedmont park!  yay!

we were supposed to go with family over the holidays but with everyone getting sick, we ended up going nowhere :p

so i used my tickets, took dan with me and we skated.  or at least tried to skate.  neither of us have really ice skated before but that was better.  at least we didn't have to worry about one of skating circles around the other; we got to hold on to the handrail and go at the same speed together. 

the weather was really cold outside but the sky was clear and you could see all of downtown/midtown atlanta!  and of course the best part....the hot chocolate bar.

week 3 AHAHHHHHH

well, day 1 of week 3, same old cycle of s***.

something small happened & my reaction was wrong.  i thought it was ok but it wasn't.

theres somewhere in this hell circle thats the vulnerable spot that i can break out of the round and embark on the linear.

i may be safe, but im also sorry.

i almost self-destructed again at the end of the week!  what is wrong with me??  thanks to what i can only imagine is karma, fate and my faith in people, i got by though....

and no matter how icky week 3 was, i learned something.
i feel better about a lot of things
and im looking forward to week 4!

New year, new hobby??

This is a cool site! It's like a hobby how to....stuff I've always wanted to do! It's nicoles classes

WEEK 2, WHATS UP

ok, so ive now completed week 2 of 2013.  and with "Project: Secret", i did ok but could have done better.

for a brief moment, i fell into an old habit, one i'm desperately trying to break & it may, in that 1 action, undone the good i did week 1.  i did however REACT TO it differently than i would have usually, and it turned out ok.

it takes a second to undo a weeks worth.  that is a big weight on me, because i react quickly to things and sometimes it means different things to others than it means to me. 

but to undo something once its done is hard. 
to undo the loss of faith someone has in me bc im "doing the same thing" or "doing it again".  they dont notice the changes bc things seem the same

so week 3 starts tomorrow & i have to keep going on this project.  it could mean a big change

and week #1 is complete...

and so closes week #1 2013... 
theres only one project im going to track on a weekly basis.  and that's because it is the hardest for me to stick to and the most important.

its called 'project: secret' because i dont want to go in detail about it as it will be boring to you and sound too dramatic.  but its important and i think it is a small change that will make a big difference.

so,
WEEK #1:  i stuck to the plan.  i did not react when i usually i would have, i controlled myself when usually i wouldn't have and there is already a small and very positive difference.  im curious to see how 52 weeks of this goes and where i am in another year and if this particular project has anything to do with it. 

and yes, by 'project: secret', i am somewhat referring to The Secret.  it has a basic suggestion in this plan.  ;)

my new years to do list...

as far as resolutions go, i make them but dont really commit to them.  just like everyone else....

but this year im going to make attainable goals, nothing life-changing, just things i want to get done this year.

and thanks to go mighty, which lets me make an overall life list, i can use my resolutions for 2013 to get other smaller things done.

1 - go to a braves game
2 - go to a falcons game this season
3 - vegas for my birthday (*this one is my favorite)
4 - go to a hawks game

* do you see a theme emerging?

5 - get a job!!! 
6 - do my charity walks this year
7 - finish my scrapbooks/organize photos
8 - see my friends before my december checkpoint

hush, hush...

something on my continuous "to do" list is to watch an episode of "buffy the vampire slayer" that one of my best friends told me about years ago. she told me i "HAD to see it!!"  but that at the same time it would
 FREAK ME OUT!

its called 'hush' and its season 4, episode 10.  and she was right... i had a hard time watching it because i was freaked the hell out!!  a silent episode where everyone loses their voice.  very neat.  but totally freaky scary thing people... very un-neat.

i loved it.  and after about 5 years, its off my list! 

#7 - check :)

i completed my go mighty goal #7 - do everything im invited to in december 2012!

i planned 4 dinners, had lunch with 1 friend, organized an impromptu xmas pub crawl, had xmas with family from california, saw a xmas concert and made some new friends in the process.  :)

i said yes to everything, unless i had 2 things planned at the same time.  but i did it.  and im tired and poor now but it gave me the chance to complete another yearly december goal - to make sure i see all my friends in person each year.

december is my last-chance checkpoint for the year to make my social connections.  so its usually busy.  and i did good this time! 

magical night of lights...

one of the projects thats always gone around in my head was a thorough view of my city.  as a resident i know i havent' done all the touristy things that people from out of town do when they're in atlanta.  so ive decided to try to do just that..

ive seen a lot of atlanta things - world of coke, centennial park, piedmont park, georgia aquarium, stone mountain, cyclorama, six flags, atlantic station, etc etc.  but i havent done everything...

december 2012 gave me a chance to get another item marked off my "Project: atlanta tourist" list...

1 - lake lanier night of lights/smores

happy 2013!

i start every year like its going to be the best year ever.  unfortunately i forget about this around mid-January, as i'm sure mostly everyone does. 

the most progress i made in a year was the year i did monthly projects.  in january, i assigned each month a theme...  january = project/organize month, february = detox month, march = green living month, etc...

i covered everything from volunteering to an all-fun 'island month' to a month dedicated to my birthday.  i did well until april, but it got me a lot further than any other set of resolutions ever did.  i had an annual plan separated into manageable blocks of time & specific categories that i had my mind on.

im going to try this again this year.  and so commences "Project:  2013"... 
happy new year!!