weeks 11 & 12
week 11 - perfect. everything went great. no complaints. actually it went better than expected and i made progress in several ways
week 12 - started well. had the potential to be wonderful. get this, due to circumstances beyond my control, circumstances im still to this moment trying to figure out, complete & utter disaster. everything ive done in the last 12 weeks was absolutely unraveled.
why? i still am not clear on that. i felt like this was totally out of my control even though i had done everything right. id done everything according to plan. and things were just getting better & better. so wtf happened??!
im angry, im confused, im frustrated and to this moment, every time i replay it, im not sure what i couldve done different to save this one. i know life throws you curve balls, gives you lemons & isn't fair, but this was so messy. i feel totally sideswiped. and a bit betrayed by this whole plan.
again, i will never go into details about all the overall basis of this secret plan, i will say this: i finally find a plan i believe in, i find something to try, i find something im excited about and it blows up. at my 3 month point, one day blows up the last 3 months. can i come back from it? only next week's blog entry will tell, i guess.
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