6 month progress report

Aside from the extreme ups & downs, it's been a positive experience. There have been really bad times but they are much fewer than last year. Much fewer.

At 6 months, I think ive made a positive turn & this project, which I've denounced more than once, has proved to be something I should continue

6 months = success

Week 19, milestone approaching..

At week 19, I'm trying to look for some longstanding progress.

But with good weeks & bad weeks, I am officially on a roller coaster I can't quite seem to get off of.

This week was good. At a 2 month point since the last big disaster & a few calm moments, I think I'm ok right now. But things seem to change do quickly....

Unbroken!! Absolutely.

Best book ever, best story ever, best guy ever!

If you ever need things put in perspective, read this. if you ever feel tired, hot, cold, thirsty, hungry or beat down...read this book.  If you need a reality check to quit whining, read this book.

What Louie zamparini went through from misfit kid to college star, to Olympic athelete to military man to castaway to POW to man of God, is all too much for me to comprehend. He lived too many lifetimes already & he's still going.

I hope to be half the person this guy is.  It makes you want to test your strength. Great book!

Lost symbol...so glad I found you....

As a fan of Dan brown, "davinci code" and "angels & demons", I knew I'd love this book.

Wanting to read it before I start "inferno", it was a great look at the US, history and humans in general. What we are & what we can one day be.

Like the others, it was full of history, science, art and other fun stuff that only Dan brown can put together into a gripping plot.  I loved it & cant wait to start "inferno"!!

The killing

I've heard about this show...in people's statuses & tweets etc.   Didn't really know what it was about other than a killing.

So needing something post "walking dead" to watch Sunday nights, "hey, let's try the killing. I think it's a tv show".

We couldnt stop watching. Each time was like a 4 episode marathon. Every new suspect was case closed! Except that it never was! And even when it was over and solved it still wasn't!! What??

Cannot wait for the new season. I'm a total fan.

Hunger games, how do I love thee....

I started book 1 to get it started & eventually return it to my sister. One more thing out of my clutter pile..

But then I ended up speeding thru it, wondering what happens next! Before I know it, my actual monthly book club book is lying aside, and I'm finishing the end of book 3, mockingjay.

I approve hunger games, of the horrid images, the disturbing storyline and the constant suffering! I approve of the entertainment I got out of it!

And all I wanted when I finished was a bit of rabbit meat, some plums and a cup of water.....

Great gatsby...book & film.

I read the book in high school but didn't remember much about it...saw the film too...don't remember much about it

What I do remember is that I liked it. So a new movie with a great cast? Yes please! DiCaprio & Mulligan? Perfect.

I wanted to reread the book first which I did. The movie looked like what I imagined while reading the book...it was in sync and I loved both. Glamorous movie, moving plot, glitz & music & parties & emotion

week 18, etc ..

Success on 2 projects with positive results, feedback. Never realized how much of a roller coaster this was until I started tracking it

Week 17...the witching hour

As we close week 17, I feel as I've lost control of this whole secret project.

I've made a big decision to terminate certain things and I'm uneasy with this. As well as abandoning "project: secret".

Aaaand I was talked out of it. Right now my biggest enemy is me, my indecisiveness & my ever-changing personalities & perspectives. Imuneasy right now & looking at my life in general as a path I completely messed up. And I know where I messed it up too. Time & place. If I could go back & fix it all....I would.

downton abbey

even the first episode was full of scandal & drama!  secret love, sisters who hate each other, money money money!  and who doesn't love maggie smith??!  :)

and an adrenaline to the heart scene a little less violent than 'pulp fiction' but still just as dramatic!
and mrs crawley is shaun of the dead's mom!!!!

the scene where the house gets a telephone.. i watched it as they all asked to be shown how it works, as i had my HTC one charging from my laptop.  in 100 years, so many things have changed.  and things change faster now than ever.  a year and a half ago i got my iPhone 3.  last month i was made fun of for having such an "old phone".  things were simpler then and it almost makes me want to turn off phones, tv and the internet for a few days and see how simplifying can make things more balanced and maybe even calm me down.

week 17 - birthday week...

following 2 vegas trips and some bday stuff... this was the week with my saturday night, friends in a bar birthday celebration.

this night came with some disappointment, as my birthday usually does.  about a quarter of the people who were coming actually showed up.  my ride was super late which made me late.  my friends that actually showed up were the early to bed group, not the late night group, as i am in...

i changed the venue to accommodate one friend who didn't show.  and 2 of my close friends decided not to show but forgot to tell me.  to end the night, a whole group of other people who were coming canceled last minute.  and my 'partner in crime' was mad at me for the evening.

i was pretty much done.  it was like one thing after another.  and the more i tried to widen my fake smile and dance and drink til i forgot i was sad, it didn't work.  ill be honest - i was disappointed.  those im always there for, never showed.  those i always transport & assist, put me on their schedule.

i always see my birthday as a measure of who your friends are.  its the one day you can unselfishly claim as your own.  i try to go for everyone else, and every year my group gets smaller.

i failed this week.  i was sad.  i admit it.  it hurt when i had to message people at midnight to see if maybe they just couldn't find our table.  and this week i couldn't hold it in.  it had been a little bit of an anxious month between work and some other issues i lied to myself about comfortable with.  it was just one petty final straw that set me off and my night ended badly.  trying to make up for it now and week 20 didn't go well either.

i feel like im completely failing at the secret project of 2013.  30 days to make a new habit??  im on week 17 and i have nothing to show for it.  when does success kick in?

all the evil deads...

i couldn't sit through the original, but because of the scary scary trailer, i had to see the new one...

"evil dead" 

a nice updated, right to the gore, scary but not scary movie.  bloody & gross & icky & scary & fun.  at times i couldn't bear to look, but watched through my fingers as i covered my eyes.  too much gory fun to miss!! 

although it is netflix-able, and i we may have paid a little more to see it than it was worth.  it was fun. :)